Seven Deadly Sins
- Envidia (Envy)-
Like greed, envy is characterized by an insatiable desire; they differ, however, for two main reasons. First, greed is largely associated with material goods, whereas envy may apply more generally. Second, those who commit the sin of envy desire something that someone else has which they perceive themselves as lacking. Dante defined this as "love of one's own good perverted to a desire to deprive other men of theirs."
It can also derive from a sense of low self-esteem that results from an upward social comparison threatening a person's self image: another person has something that the envier considers to be important to have. If the other person is perceived to be similar to the envier, the aroused envy will be particularly intense, because it signals to the envier that it just as well could have been him or her who had the desired object.
Please God no, Jen resisted the urge to actually rub her eyes and continued to stare at the scene unfolding before her. His fingers around a slender arm; a delicate, well manicured hand on his face; red lips against his cheek; him smiling down at the harlot, all served to raise her blood pressure more than a few notches. She narrowed her eyes at the red head standing in front of Gibbs at the elevators, for some reason unable to tear her gaze away from the scene unfolding before her.
Glancing over to his team to make sure no one had noticed her frozen on the steps, she locked eyes with Ziva, silently pleading with whichever God was listening to make sure that she didn't understand what was going through her mind. Dragging her gaze away from Ziva's knowing eyes, she retreated to her office. Storming past Cynthia she slammed the door with a slam that would have put Gibbs to shame. The thought of him made her want to slam the door again. Sure, she had told him there was going to be no "off the job" but surely he knew that she didn't want him parading his latest conquest in front of her. She shook her head and let out a bitter laugh. Gibbs didn't parade, nor did he have conquests, he wasn't Tony. She paced her office, her hands making fists tight enough to leave her knuckles white, she wanted to punch something, and she was pretty sure she was going to punch the next person that walked through her door, guilty or not. She tried dragging a lungful of air in, but it did nothing to calm her. The rage, if she was honest with herself it was actually jealousy, was pumping around her body, causing her blood pressure to rise. She shut her eyes and rubbed her temples; she could feel a headache coming on.
"Cynthia, please get Agent Gibbs up here, ASAP." She barked down the intercom. Cynthia's reply was lost as she let go of the button and continued to pace. So caught up in her pacing, she didn't hear the open open.
"What Jen?" Gibbs voice pulled her from her focus and stopped her pacing. She lifted her green eyes to his blue and narrowed them, hoping to intimidate him, even though she knew it wouldn't work.
"Agent Gibbs, this is a place of work not a frat house, please kindly refrain from parading your latest conquest around."
"Conquest Jen?" He stared at her, an amused look seeping into his eyes, "Parading?"
"Yes, you were definitely parading down there." She snapped. He stared at her, and she could see him mind working. His eyes widened in delight and surprise as he obviously came to his conclusion as to why she was angry with him.
"You're jealous!" The pleasure in his voice made her want to strangle him.
"No I'm not!" She replied, trying her best to sound indignant, when he raised an eyebrow knowingly at her she sighed inwardly, on the outside she maintain the front. He chuckled and pulled her to him, briefly wrapping his arms around her.
"You have nothing to be worried about." He said, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear, his fingertips brushing against her neck. He turned to leave.
"You gonna tell me who she is?" She called after him. He stopped and looked around, a smug grin gracing his features, before turning and calling his one word answer over his shoulder.
"Nope."
Comes after that episode, can't remember which one it is, early in season three, when Gibbs and an unnamed red head are by the elevators.
A/N by CK: It was in "Silver War".